Lady Sidney the Divine - A Rebirthday Reunion

Celebration

Substances: DPT, GHB, Ketamine, LSD

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* June 4, 1989 - Beijing, China: Many
students are killed by government
troops while protesting for democratic
reforms in Tiananmen Square.

* June 4, 1989 - Washington, DC suburbs:
Through a a series of coincidences, I ran
across a little square of white blotter
paper containing a sample of Hofmann's
magical elixir, and so have my first
trip.

* June 4, 1999 - Beijing, China: Soldiers
raised the Chinese flag over Tiananmen
Square in Beijing, as China tried to ignore
the anniversary of the student democracy
movement there a decade ago.

* June 4, 1999 - Washington, DC suburbs:
Unlike in China, June 4 is an anniversary
full of joy for me, and one which I
celebrated quite fully
this year, as is fitting for 10 years...

Ahh yes... my 10th rebirthday! This is one that I won't soon forget. I hadn't had LSD in a pretty long time... about 15 months since my last mild experience, and around 2 years since my last full blown LSD experience, which had been a little on the rough side. I've been exploring other entheogens quite thoroughly in this time, but I stayed away from LSD for a variety of reasons.

With my 10th rebirthday approaching, however, I decided it was time for a reunion. I obtained a hit of green geltab acid, and set it aside for the upcoming anniversary.

June 4th finally came, and I felt that old familiar nervous anticipation rising in me. Acid! My first and most familiar ally... I found myself incredibly nervous, which struck me as silly. I've done this countless times. I've done crazy shit like ayahuasca. Why is a little hit of acid causing so much tension? I guessed just because it had been so long. I decided on 11PM for take-off.

Around 10:15, I decided to go on my regular internet chatroom to relax and smoke some cannabis before take-off. I go on there and find one person taking AMT, one person taking DPT, one person taking AMT with mushrooms, one taking DPT with ketamine, someone else taking LSD, and a few other assorted trippers. Surprise, it looks like the universe decided to throw me a spontaneous rebirthday virtual-party! Well, alright then!

I placed the sacrament at the foot of my Buddha carving, and lit a stick of incense. I reflected upon all that I had been through with LSD over the last 10 years, and all the wonderful things I have learned from it. 11PM, down the hatch! Well, like I said 10 years ago, theres no turning back now!

I felt a strong alert by 11:15PM, and knew I was going to be in for a wild ride. I was also overcome by a strong wave of nostalgia about LSD. I put on headphones and listened to Moody Blues, broke out a folder of my old LSD-influenced drawings, and began reminiscing. I read old LSD reports of mine (unfortunately, I've only made a few of them). I thought about how different of a world it was when I first fell through the rabbit hole. There was still a Soviet Union. The Internet was still not much more beyond the wet dreams of a few visionary geeks. Someone reminded me that the Tiananmen Square massacre happened the same day. 10 years. Wow...

Around 12:15, I wasn't tripping unusually hard, I was at a Plus 2 on the Shulgin scale. I started to get worried that I wouldn't trip any harder. By 12:30-12:45, however, I realized that I was about to trip quite a bit harder. I went to lay down just as I found myself hurled into an amazing Plus 4. I remembered how much I loved LSD right then, and wondered why I had let it go so long.

The peak was spectacular. I was laying in bed in a dark room, the best way to experience acid I think, and the closed-eye visuals were mindblowing. At the same time, I felt that high-speed LSD consciousness train blasting through my skull. The visuals and thoughts were very much in sync. I thought about many things... how much I had missed acid, how much I had learned from it over the years... and then into reflections on my life. Realization that this was my first acid trip as a non-smoker, which struck me as being an important milestone. After a little while, I stopped thinking *about* anything and I became just a process of abstract thinking, accompanied by the fantastic acid visualscapes of the disembodied eye state. I experienced strange temporal distortions, had visions of the LSD "spirit" appearing to me as a yound woman dressed in white muslin, saw both the dark and the light sides of acid as a sort of "This Is Your Life" nostalgia session. I had a particularly amusing vision of people putting tabs of acid to their tongues and immediately sprouting wings from their mouths and flying off to the "real" world (a la "The Matrix", sort of).

Sometime during theheight of the peak, around 1-1:30AM I would estimate, I had a very strange experience. I had the sensation that I was somehow communicating with an entity - which I soon realized was my friend B. This had a strange feeling of being real... some sort of telepathic link. I found myself talking to her soundlessly in some sort of impossible space, and rapidly became confused as to which one of us was who. "Whats happening?" I felt her think... and I thought back "I don't know, I just think our realities are overlapping...we'll just have to ride it out." I felt a strong feeling of caring, and soon after, it was as if we zoomed apart at hundreds of miles per hour and the contact was broken. The strange thing is that the next morning when I spoke with her, she asked "So, did you feel us talking about you last night?"

Around 3-3:30AM, things leveled off enough that I was able to move around. I returned to the internet chatroom, and soon someone convinced me to try a little ketamine, saying that the combination was amazing. I cut some out into two large lines, returned to my bedroom, snorted the ketamine, and lay down. I waited. I got a strange visual effect where everything began to "melt" somewhat - the effect is similar to what would happen if you sprayed water on a watercolor painting. This only lasted a short while. I felt a mild increase in the trip's "weirdness" factor, but overall it seemed to make no real big difference to the character of the trip - I think I was already too far out for it to have any effect. I wasn't very disappointed, not being very fond of ketamine to begin with.

I got back on the chatroom and had a great time talking about tripping with everyone for a while. Around 5AM, I decided to take a little bit of DPT to boost myself back up a little. It added a little vibrational signature to the trip, and brought back some intensity, but didn't add a whole lot to the trip, as I only did a small quantity (25mg at most).

2 or 3 hours later I got an email from some guy in Serbia who had emailed us a few times before. It was a picture of a peace sign overlaid on a potleaf. I decided to go to CNN's web site and saw a headline saying the war in Kosovo could be over by the end of the weekend. I made a little prayer for peace.

Around 7AM, I had dropped down to a level where I was mainly stimulated, more than tripping, and decided it was time to take a little GHB to make myself sleepy. No such luck! I ended up consuming enough GHB to tranquilize a herd of elephants over the next 6 hours, and barely noticed any effect over the lingering LSD stimulation. I finally managed to fall into a fitful sleep around 1PM, sleeping until 6, when I woke up physically drained but mentally full of energy.

This was one amazing trip, totally worthy of a 10-year anniversary celebration! And it was a spectacular reunion with an old, trusted friend. I won't be letting it go that long again before I schedule another date with my beloved Lady Sidney the Divine...