Overwhelmed

Intramuscular dipropyltryptamine

Substances: DPT

I decided to try an intramuscular injection of DPT yesterday. I had read up on it and had all the necessary materials for the preperation. In the afternoon, I dissolved 70 mg of DPT HCl in 1.5 ml of sterile 1% NaCl solution by applying a hot water bath to the outside of the vial in which it was dissolving. It is hard to get it to dissolve otherwise. But eventually it all dissolved leaving a faintly amber tinted liquid. Later in the day I was feeling sort of stressed out and I was unsure whether I would go through with it or not. I took a bike ride to a favorite place of mine, up on a hill overlooking all of berkeley, where the grass grows very thick and green this time of year. It was an hour or so before sunset. I laid down in the deep grass (deeper than my supine body) and watched clouds for a while, until I became cold from the slightly damp grass and put on a layer so i could sit on a nearby rock and watch the sunset. It was quite beautiful. This experience was just what I needed. My stressed feeling was completely gone. I went home and finished up all the small game tasks that were still hanging over my head for the day. This done, I stretched out fully and took a shower. I returned to my room naked, and sat down to perform the injection. I was a little bit apprehensive. I have only administered a drug intramuscularly once, and that was ketamine which is not really a psychedelic and in a way is much less intense than the fast acting tryptamines... But I pulled 1 cc into my syringe and, after cleaning my skin with alcohol, administered the first injection into my left thigh. It did not hurt going in. I pulled what was left (1/2 cc) into the syringe again and administered it this time to my right thigh. Standing up i noticed immediate soreness in both thighs, but more so in the right for some reason. I capped the needle and disposed of it before pressing play on the cd player and climbing naked into bed. I turned off the lights and closed my eyes. The first swirls of color were already beginning by the time the gentle beginnings of Coil's "Time Machines" cd became audible to my ears. For those of you who have not listened to this cd while tripping (or otherwise), it is the most amazing auditory experience I have ever had. The inscription on the back reads "Four tones to facilitate time travel." The names of the tones are 7-methoxy-beta-carboline (Harmine), DOET, 5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine (5MeO-DMT), and 4-HO-DMT (psilocybin).... I was intrigued when I saw it, as it seems to imply that listening to these tones while tripping (especially on their namesakes) will induce some change into the way you perceive reality. And it works, generally... (the best is listening to Harmine while on LSD... dont ask me why.) On DPT, however I was too far gone to be paying any attention at all. Soon the swirls of color intensified, and I focused on the music (if you can call a single incredibly complex tone 'music') Soon the music was lost to my consciousness, I was not aware of its presence. What I was seeing and hearing (which I couldnt recognize as being that cd) was all that was real. I tried to form a verbal thought at one point, and could not. My mind simply could not find a single word to think. I tried to picture something, anything... and could not. This was not alarming to me, though. I was prepared for it. It would have been terrifying had it not been what I was seeking. Somehow though, I missed the vision state that so many people seem to have. I saw this pattern before me, endlessly unfolding, although I have no idea how to describe it. It was sort of like CEVs on mushrooms but WAY brighter and evolving WAY faster. Yes, I was tripping harder than I have ever tripped before (and that is saying something), but other than that there wasnt anything really unique about the experience. It reminded me of the smoking experiences I have had with DPT multiplied by a few times. Nonetheless, I did not break through to whatever realm of consciousness the vision states so dramatically described in TIHKAL lie in. I just lay there for like an hour unable to think, unable to move (although at one point I tried and was immediately assaulted with sensations that told me that moving was a bad idea and that I should just lie still.) Once I opened my eyes. My entire room, which was in near but not perfect darkness, was strobing very quickly. There was a thick, darkly colorful veil over everything and it moved and swirled in exactly the same way as my CEVs... In fact it was the same thing, just superimposed over and slightly affected by visual stimulus. The cd eventually played itself out, and I lay still listening to the waveforms of the universe for quite a while. Eventually I became aware that I needed to urinate. I turned on the light. Everything in the room was moving. Even totally stationary objects were leaving very dramatic trails. (this was T+1.5 hours.) I walked to the bathroom shakily (my legs were still sore) and urinated. Then I returned to my room and drank a lot of water from the bottle on my nightstand. I lay around for several hours after this, gradually, imperceptibly coasting towards sobriety. At T+3.5 hours (midnight) I finally fell asleep. I awoke eight hours later feeling fine physically if a little sore at the injection points, but my mind still feels a bit squishy (its 9:30 am) as I write this.

What do I think about this experience? I dont know. I guess Im glad I did it and I will definately NOT do it again. I like DPT via the smoking route, and I am curious to try an oral dose, but I am not going to put it in my muscle again. Before this I had also been curious about an intramuscular injection of 5meo-dmt, but I dont know now... One of the best things about DPT and 5 meo is that they are so short lived when you smoke them. Having 5 meo last as long as this did is very scary to me. I find DPT smoked to be pretty benign in comparison to 5 meo and this became unpleasant in its length and intensity after a while. This experience was far and away the most raw intensity I have gotten from a chemical, but it just lasted way too long. And I retained next to nothing of the experience. No revelations that I can recall, although if anything profound did occur I would not remember it in the slightest... The peak was more than an hour long and I only remember a few tiny shards of it. I guess at this point I am asking the question of myself: WHY did I not get anything from this experience? There are many possible answers. I am leaning towards taking a 'too much experimentation, too little time' view. Maybe Ive had all of the revelations that I am ready to have at this point. Idunno... All in all, I much prefer the smoking route, although for efficiency this method cannot be beat.