All twosies are created equal

Phenethylamine (2C-B + 2C-T-2) explorations

Substances: 2C-T-2, 2C-B

I began by ingesting 4 mg of 2C-T-2 every 5 minutes over a period of 25 minutes, totalling at 24 mg. Decided german krautrockers Can would provide a pleasant soundtrack for the initial climb, so I put on their Tago Mago album. Almost instantly I noticed a sharpened ability to concentrate, and used the unusual calmness of mind to read a few pages of William S. Burroughs' Junky. Still, long after the trip, I remember the mind-set with joy.

About an hour after the initial dose I feel the effects of the 2C-T-2 manifest themselves more prominently, including an uneasy stomach. The unpleasant physical effects had subsided 15 minutes later so I ingested the 10 mg of 2C-B as planned.

I had been slightly depressed for a period of time, but dealt with some of the underlying factors, and felt I was on the right track, but I was not completely free from conflicts and nuisance. Suddenly I felt this massive emotional release, I was no longer poisoned by the shame I had been feeling, and the remaining guilt didn't feel very heavy to carry on my shoulders anymore. Actually, most of it fell off. I no longer blame myself for being the one who I am, sure I do a thing or two that is not very good, but those are mistakes, and mistakes can be corrected. With this new insight I felt that I found a whole new energy to take on the world with.

I no longer bothered to keep track of the time elapsed, but a while into the trip I had some more classic psychedelic effects of the senses, interesting patterns when looking at the ceiling. I would say that some of the colors very clearly contributed to by the 2C-B. Other feelings of deeper acceptance were felt in connection to being part of the great cosmic game and the feeling that everything was going to be alright sooner or later. I enjoyed touch, and had that special cosy, warm feeling inside, centered in my chest and through it, it was beaming in and out of everything.

I thought about DAMP (ADD, ADHD) and how some of the symptoms are part of my personality, and that I really would not like to be 'cured' by whatever might be available. I'd rather see a society which is adapted to different types of personality than one where you have to adapt the people to the increasingly absurd state of the western world.

As a comparative conclusion, while experiment B provided a trip that reminded me of MDMA and was almost of the same magnitude, experiment A was of a more 'classic' psychedelic type, with out-of-body sensations, intensely synaesthetic and experienced sensory input was almost overwhelming with cartoonish macro- and microscopia. Interesting that this small shift of equilibrium provided such different experiences.