Asexual prankster elves

4 grams dried cubensis

Substances: Psilocybe cubensis

My husband, two friends and I ingested about 4 grams each of dried cubensis. We simply chewed the dried mushrooms with pieces of chocolate. (I don't recommend this method of taking them, btw...the chocolate did little to mask the taste of the mushrooms.) We finished our doses at about 10 PM. The effects manifested almost immediately. We turned off most of the lights and relaxed on the floor.

I was sucked into a trance state rather abruptly. I made contact with the mushroom entities. (For me, the mushroom is represented as a group of asexual prankster elf entities. When I take larger doses, say 3-5 g. dried, these entities have a running dialogue going with me throughout most of the trip.) My consciousness underwent the bizarre distortions it often does on mushrooms. "I" was the floor, the mushroom, an unwitting participant in a bad 70's movie. The mushroom entities seemed to explore my consciousness and they latched on to a silly, irrational fear I have had since childhood- that of spiders. They forced me to confront the fear by being a spider, being covered by spiders, and being eaten by bugs. Being a spider was pretty amazing- I felt huge and covered with eyes and multicolored hairs.

Often on my larger dose trips I feel as though I have stepped outside of normal spacetime into a place I have trouble describing accurately. This place looks basically the same as where you are physically at the time, but the "normal" laws of reality cease to mean anything. Time means nothing. Space means nothing. Anything is possible. I was in this place for what seemed like eternity during this trip.

And on this occasion there were other entities present. One was an alien who existed in the same space as me but in a different plane. He seemed to be a scientist of some kind, and I felt him inside my consciousness, exploring and making changes. I could feel him thinking through me. This was a very odd feeling.

I experienced being an alien for a while, then I slipped into the consciousness of a little demon who was full of malicious glee. At this point the mushrooms began repeating a lesson that I had gotten previously- that the perception of time passing was the cause of suffering.

I was then forced to relive parts of my childhood differently. On my last trip my self-esteem problem had come up, and the reliving of my childhood was part of the solution. I experienced being born- strange because the birth was vaginal breech while I was born caesarian. Then, since I've expressed an interest in shamanic healing recently, I was given the opportunity to experience what it was like. I took a tremendous amount of bad energy into myself and vomited it out, literally. I felt poisoned. It was extremely unpleasant. In between bouts of vomiting I began experimenting with my neurochemistry, but I stopped in fear of not knowing what effect it would have. I think this tinkering with my neurochemistry was also part of "fixing" me.

We finally spoke at about 3 AM. We discussed our trips and found many similarities between them. By 5 AM I think we were ready for bed and more or less baseline.

This was one of the more intense and strange experiences I've had with mushrooms. It seemed like an incredible amount of information passed through my puny brain in that period of time, and that I've only brought back a hint of what "really" happened. I did become convinced after this trip that shamanic healing was not the path for me. Heh.