Intense Confusion on Starship Salvia

A set of experiments

Substances: Salvia divinorum

I have smoked Salvia twice now - I need several days rest in between - for my mental health. Each time i do not remeber many details of the experiences but there are main themes that have existed for me both times. The first that happens is that while still smoking, perhaps the second or third bowl (using a 2ft tube) i, all of a sudden, no longer know what i am doing. It is utter confusion. The firts time I didn't know why I was smoking, or if i was SUPPOSED to smoke more(i.e. I was being directed by something/somebody) and put down the tube and lighter and sat back, not knowing what was going on. I forgot why I wanted to smoke and what I had planned on doing after I had finished actually inhaling all the smoke.

At this point I remebered that I had planned on closing my eyes, in an allready totally dark room, and letting the plant guide my being for a while. Usually at this point i get intense CEVs, although I can never make out what they are. This experience for me is difficult to explain, but i will do my best: They morph constantly and at amazing speeds. I can never quite tell what I am seeing but they are in fantastic neon, black light reactant-esque colors. Either they are not images of things that exist in our external reality and are just indescipherable(sp?) patterns changing rapidly (often the changes are linked to music, if I am playing anything: usually techno) or they are images from our normal reality and they are just changing at such an incredible rate that I do not have the mental capacity to be conciously aware of what everything that I am seeing is. This experience is at the same time pleasurable but also a bit unnerving, since it is a sense of confusion that surround me that I do not experience any time else.

I have introduced two friends to Salvia, instructing them to try it for the first time in the same manner as I have. One didn't enjoy it much, but found occasional visual or auditory stimuli bizarre and pleasurable. The other enjoyed it but couldn't communicate his experince well, saying only that he'd like to do it again in a social context - a few people smoking slavia together. I will do it again but would appreciate hints as to how to mentally prepare myself for the salvia dreams (the term that I find most accurately describes the experience), or how to make the experience better...since the confusion is a bit distrurbing and causes me to go into very brief periods of mild panic, from which I readilly come out of.

Well, I am replying to my own message since I wanted to add onto it some. This night I smoked Salvia with a couple of friends and we attempted to watch Alice in Wonderland w/ Dark Side while we were in a sort of Salvia wonderland. Thus I kept my eyes open and was socializing, a little, with two friends. This salvia experience was markedly different in that although I smoked at least as much as before, I felt no intense effects. I had a touch of mellowness and the parts of the movies which matched Dark Side of the Moon impressed me more than they would have had I been totally sober, but the intensity and almost panic and confusion that I had previously felt while using Salvia was nonexistant...So I guess I have learned a bit about how Salvia does its thing and I truly believe the only entheogenic experience that Salvia D. can give us is when we are alone with our thoughts and maybe with music that is mostly without lyrics which can interupt our internal monolgue (if you will). Just thought I'd pas this 3rd Salvia encounter of the second kind along.