Overpowered by Ayahuasca

It looked like a stream of red snakes flying from my mouth

Substances: Ayahuasca, Peganum harmala, Mimosa hostilis

Preparation:

18 grams of mimosa hostilis root bark were pulverized using a meat tenderizer in a pyrex baking dish. This was a very tedious process of banging the fine purple powder out of the twig looking bark. On completion, the remnants of the bark looked like white straw. This was all mixed together with a half a liter of purified water, and 4 tablespoons of freshly squeezed key lime juice. The mixture was allowed to sit for about 24 hours on the shelf, and was then boiled, with the cover on, in a glass pot for about 3 hours. The brew was strained with a fine mesh screen, and the leftover particles were boiled again for 30 minutes in about one-fouth of a liter of water. The process was repeated one more time after that. This resulted in a little less than a liter of deep browninsh purple liquid that was boiled uncovered for about 2 hours. The final liquid was about 150ml of thick brown sludge, which was poured into the pyrex baking dish. This was allowed to sit for 3 days until all moisture had evaporated. This left a dry crystalline film on the dish with just a hint of tar. It was all scrapped off with a butter knife and razor blade. The final residue was put into 18 gelcaps.

Set and setting:

A condo was rented in a resort area in a very warm and humid sub-tropical location. There were lots of trees and privacy. On this trip, several people had along who had no knowledge of ayahuasca, itís effects, or that this was to be done. However, they were off doing something for several hours so that I could experience alone. The intention was to have a mild dose on this trip.

The experience:

8:00AM: I get out of bed and consume 3.5 grams of finely ground syrian rue, which had been put into nine gelcaps. This was done on a completely empty stomach. Lots of water was consumed at the time.

9:00AM: As the rue starts be felt, 6 of the above gelcaps were consumed. This would have equated to about 6 grams of the original root bark. Six grams of bark would be 50% less than what was used in an average trip with the liquid form of mimosa ayahuasca. I was hoping for mild hallucinations and background trippy effects to accentuate the beautiful resort I was in.

11:30AM: Until this point, no feeling had been noticed except the syrian rue. Now there were slightly trippy effects. Decide to go hang out at the resort pool, thinking that this won't turn out to be much of a heavy trip after all.

11:45AM: At the pool, the intensity of tripping starts to kick in with a fair amount of power. I am now seeing trails off of people walking around the pool. The trees start vibrating into the blue sky, and the typical 3-D DMT visuals started to appear. I'm thinking this is going to be very nice indeed.

12:00PM: I am now starting to get concerned about the intensity of the halluncinations, and whether I should be in a public place. I decide to walk back to the room which takes about 5 minutes. It turns out to be a struggle as my visual world is starting to swirl.

12:15PM: I am laying face down on my bed, and am having EXTREME open and closed eye visuals. I am starting to lose my ability see with my eyes open The theme was very dark green images of leaves, eyes, and feminine Mayan/Aztec/Hindu type statue faces. It had a real dark jungle quality. I feel a sense of anxiety as the hallucinations get more and more powerful. There are also deep somatic physical effects starting to overcome my body which start to nauseate me, cover me with sweat, and almost force my eyes shut as I am too weak to keep them open.

12:30PM: I start to lose my mind. I have forgotten who I am, or why I had taken this substance. I don't know where I am, and am confronted with complete psychosis. My survival instincts cause me to have a mild panic attack, and I start to hyperventilate. I have lost all touch with reality, and am in a very dark place. It was like being in outer space, sort of like in the movie "Contact" when Jody Foster goes through the worm hole (only without the happy beach scene). It was another dimension really. There was an evil and terrifying presence here in this place. Time had lost all meaning. It was like I had been allowed to experience "eternity". I later realized that my "12 hours" in this state was really only 5 or 10 minutes. Let me emphasize that this was not very fun at all. It gave new meaning to the term FUBAR (fucked up beyond all recognition).

12:45PM: I start to phase in and out of reality, and come to the conclusion that I desparately need to puke this shit out of me. The thought had crossed my mind to call 911 for help, but some cosmic better judgement was telling me that this was a REAL bad idea - better just stick it out. I then crawl on my hands and knees to the kitchen sink, where I stand trying to gag myself in an attempt to vomit. Then it came out with a violent force. It looked like a stream of red snakes flying from my mouth. Not to go into TOO much gory detail, but I really was a total physical mess. My eyes were watering real bad which added a melting effect to the open eye visuals. I have to say that I felt better after unloading the vile substance. I was able to visually tune into my surroundings, and was able to start walking. However, I was still having anxiety and some hyperventilation.

1:00PM: All of a sudden, the trip has become more manageable. The change is dramatic. I feel like I have been reborn, and the feeling is quite beautiful. The dark color patterns became more colorful, and lighter, and the open eye visuals were of lighter colors, but fading quickly with time. I decide to watch a little TV, which helps ground me firmly in reality.

1:30PM: The people who came with me have now come back, and they say they I don't look like I was doing too well. Since they have no idea of what I did, I tell them that I ate something which didn't agree with my stomach - went. We end up playing a card game (Magic The Gathering), and I feel very energized and euphoric. My mind was (and still is) really clear, and my ego is wiped away. I am more concious of other people'e energy levels.

2:30PM: I am back to ground zero. Just two hours before this, it's hard to believe that I thought I had virtually overdosed and was losing my mind. I decide to prepare a meal as I was quite hungry now.

Prolog: It's been a couple of days since my trip to eternity, and I am still occasionally having closed eye visuals. They are very beautiful, and seem to be yellow and purple in color - flowers seem to be the prominent theme. I also see mild tracers off of moving objects (like other people's hands moving around as they explain things to me). These are becoming less frequent as time progresses. Must be a little residual DMT floating around in the brain chemistry. These are not bothersome and are not a problem. I also still have the bright clarity in my mind - which is totally cool!

Analysis:

Dried up mimosa liquid is very powerful, and will kick your ass into another dimension. The fictional person in our story has taken various forms of acid in heroic doses, shrooms, and the liquid form of mimosa ayahuasca on several occasions. This was the most powerful trip ever experienced. It was raw, gut wrenching terror at it's lowest level, and divine beauty at it's highest.

PLEASE RESPECT THIS SUBSTANCE.