The Medicine: First meeting

One man's journey to the peyote awareness

Substances: Lophophora williamsii

My expectations were based on words I have heard and what I have read in books, in particular Pharmacotheon. I believe Ott said that mescaline and LSD are hard to tell apart as far as effects. The Medicine people we have been getting to Know have always said Peyote is a Medicine and a healing thing. I thought that sounded cool, but still had the LSD effect in my head as the expected experience. We have had much healing from LSD so that made sense.

Miracle after miracle led us to the meeting. A story about all that would take a day to write so I will leave the story short and just say that amazing miracles got us there and made everything fall into place. One thing about the Medicine is that it can make things happen in the world to get what it needs done. It is a definate tool for our mother planet, the Earth.

Now after meeting true Medicine people we have a whole large family on-line and off. People we love and are loved by. A few years ago this would have been an alien thought to think we would have this much family, when we had none before.

Anyway, to the Medicine. Soon after my first button early in the day I began to feel something in me. The Medicine was showing me something important. I was givin this button to eat to elevate me so I could help with the tea and the preparations of the circle. Healing was underway already.

As the day went on I was being told certain things, very personal, and very important. Night came and the ceremony began. My goal was to eat as much of the Medicine as I could, I was going for massive visuals. Early in the day I was told to paint or draw what I see during the visions by the Medicine. I later read in a book that the Huichol indians believed that they were supposed to do just that too. Cool, I thought.

There was a large group and each of us told how and why we were there, we all shared and it was beautiful. We were all givin some tea and I drank it, it wasn't bad at all. At least as compared with a syrian rue tea anyway. The buttons came around and I took one and ate it easily, the second one went down smooth, the third one was getting to me. I was told to chew them up totally and was doing that, but I could only swallow about half of the third one and my body said no more. I was dissappointed, I wanted to eat maybe 6 or more. Ha!

I waited for a while to feel the effects. I had fasted the day, which I had never done before, and Knew that purging would be the plan. The nausea was mild and for a long time I was thinking I may not throwup, and I really wanted too. But after an hour or two the nausea built up to where I could help it out, and I did. I emptied my belly and then some. My God, it felt so good. Then some visuals came into the picture. This was not even close to LSD visuals. In fact nothing about anything even remotely reminded me of LSD. The visual were very well defined and beautiful. I didn't notice any of the wriggling or moving that LSD does to my visuals, this was pictures overlaid on top of what I saw around me. The visuals didn't last long and I thought maybe I wasn't worthy of the Medicine, I really wanted my first Peyote trip to be special. Hee hee.

The trip began to show me things, uncomfortable things, it showed me something that hadn't been resolved in mine and Jo's relationship. Something deeply personal that we had spent many LSD trips trying to resolve. The LSD trips effectively cured Jo's depression and her low self-esteem, but this other thing never changed. We had pretty much gave up and were living with this thing, and it caused us to miss out on some powerful moments. But we just kinda dealt with it best we could, never really sure what the hell it was. The Medicine gave me examples and showed me a clearity about it. And it said that it has to go! No more living with it. It asked me if I wanted to fix it. I was thinking, "Of course I do", but it asked, so I thought about it and told the Medicine, "Yes".

The entire trip was very beautiful, and as the sun came up someone began to sing and we welcomed the sun. By now we all were in a very vibrant state and we all were close as ever. Strangers the night before were as close as any family member could be. We were all one, truly a magical experience. We feasted and talked and we had to leave.

Now the healing: I was told by the Medicine people that the Medicine works for days after. That is a fact.

Jo and I were so excited and very happy. I told her in detail about what the Medicine had shown and told me in a clear way. This little thing in our life had to be fixed, now. But how? We had tried for years and it was exactly the same. LSD had showed it to us and we had looked at it closely, but it never changed. In fact we had accepted it and hadn't even thought about it much anymore.

So, by habit, we looked at Jo's mind. Hey, she had a whole package of mental curiosities when we first met. So we started talking and studying her, nothing seemed to be there that was the cause of the thing. So, something said, "Look at yourself, Bob". Ok, we did. Well, what a mess! Ha! We had never really dug into my head, and it was easy once we started. Jo had been so much fun that we comepletely ignored my problems in the past. It didn't take long till we Knew exactly what is happening. I have a lot of pain and fear suppressed in me that manifests in ways that aren't even related it seems. But it has been so supressed by me that I hadn't even considered it was there. But upon looking inside, it's all there. Wow. And we pulled a little out, and yes, it is pain. Fear too. My mom kicked me out of my home when I was 17, she was going out with a married cop, and he had busted me, she kicked me out to be with him. She "broke up" with me for a superficial relationship with this pig, a lowlife pig too. She ditched mother/son love for a superficial fling. It pissed me off, but I swallowed it and forgot about it. But it had come up in strange ways ever since me and Jo were together. Now, for the very first time in my entire life I looked at that moment. And realized that there was a LOT of pain over that. I still rarely speak with my mom. It has manifested as a possiveness in me that I hate, and I am ashamed of. But I truly believed that I had to "protect" Jo. Every time we tripped with a group, at least one guy would make advances on Jo, and I would have to stand in the way. Talk about a distraction. But the Medicine has shown me that I manifest these guys the same way we manifest money when we need it, and the way we manifest doses when we need them. It has always been me doing it.

It is now Wednesday, 4 days after the Medicine, and the healing is underway. It is still working and I am so freed up from my fears I can't believe it. This one trip has gone so far beyond my expectations and my hopes that it is unbelieveable to me. I hadn't realized that I needed a healing, but the Medicine Knew all along and forced it upon us. With this one thing resolved, mine and Jo's relationship is as healthy as it can be. And this was needed and the Medicine told me so. To move up to the next level in life, we had to cure this. And I feel cured. I Know I need to bring out everything that is in me to the surface and deal with it. Some of the things may not be easy, but it is under way and I already feel so marvelous I can't describe it. I am free, after all these years!

I want to express my thanks to the Medicine people and to the Medicine itself. I am sold. It works. I have always Known that all entheogens are healing tools, but in my whole life I have never experienced such a clear message and such a clear direction to take. And after 6 years with Jo trying to resolve my insecurities, we had not made one step. I guess I look outward, and have never looked inside my own mind for this answer. I want to cry from joy!

I also want to say to all you that I love so much, if you need a healing, it can happen with the Medicine. If I ever have had a message to the Elves, this is it. The Medicine and the very magical and powerful people who are the Medicine people can and will help any of you reach your goals and be comeplete humans. This is the purpose of the Medicine. I wonder why they call it, "Medicine". Ha! It is true.

Funny, what I was told about the Medicine and it's power was true. All the descriptions I was givin were right on the money. "They" Know. Now I Know.

As far as the visions, I was told after by one the Medicine people that it is amazing that you can only eat what you need to eat for that particular healing. I saw what the visions are and am impressed, but now that the full effects have done the work, the visions are not even neccessary. Maybe the next time, which you can count on there being a next time, I will be able to go into the Huichol land of beauty and art without the need to protect my mate. :)

Well, just scratched the surface here, so much magic happened, there is so much magic in the world, life is magic!

Bless the Medicine and the Medicine people, bless them well!

All the best and lots of love