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San Pedro preparation fails to give significant effects

Substances: Trichocereus

Preparation
1 litre of distilled water in a large pot (not aluminium), bring to boil. Afterwhich abt 100g of San Pedro cactus (as they are in dried bits and pieces, as crispy as potato chips, and pulverized them, by pounding them just a bit more. The kitchen blender is spoilt, so unable to try the blending way) Add all these to the water and also from 4 small size lemons...squeezed...abt 250ml of lemon juice, all mixed...at this point, went to add another 400ml of distilled water seeing that more water is needed. Bring the pot to a slow simmer. (6.00pm) by 8pm, strained the liquid, from the pulp. Cleaned the pot, poured in fresh distilled water abt 1.5 litre...bring to boil and poured the pulp back in, to simmer (another 3 hrs). 11pm, strained liquid again from the pulp. Cleaned the pot, then combined 1st batch liquid with the 2nd batch liquid (abt 500ml in total)...and simmer down in another 1 hr to abt 1 cup full.

at abt 12.30am, drank the cup till mid-level and then on & off the rest within the next 30mins on empty stomach (had previously fast for 20 - 24 hrs). Liquid was quite quite soapy, not too slimy, less green, more brown, very bitter, and sour (due to lemons)...as expected. laid down on matteress...and relax...by 30 - 40mins, a sense of comfort set in...had to tune in quietly to feel the comfort, the comfort felt like a whiff of gentleness sweeping in..but very mildly. Quite nice...though after 1 hr, nothing much, no visuals...must make effort to cause breathing walls. But not intersted in forceful attempts...so simply relaxed and waited...hour passed, nothing much, so at this point...went to smoke a stash of Psychotria Sp leaves with Passionflower extract resin on a techno pipe (by silver palm leaf, UK). Strong taste, smoke. Head went dazed...body sensitivity increased, and in some time, the lingering taste of the smoke pushed the feeling to puke, abt 4am, puked abit...puked 2 times...but very little...

5.30am suddenly a strong buzzing ringing sound in my ear (esp the right ear)...for some 2 - 5 mins, pretty loud. then gone. also felt stronger somatic chills and ticklish sensations within my body.

7am slept...

11am - 7pm somatic effects lasted till afternoon...and by evening, still lingering somatic effects. certain parts of the day, had conversations, watched telly, did stuff, had moments of sugguestability, increased emotional sensitivity...could be noticed. sometimes had a tightness in my head...like an headache, but it didnt quite hurt...its just a bit uncomfortable, thats all.

sadly, no visions, no insights, no jaguars, snakes...for the past many weeks, lots of experiments on stuff etc, all no visions...did a strong high threshold tolerance suddenly developed?

some 1 raised the possibility of mental blocks or psychic censor blocks which prevents the expereince of full effects...the doses taken many times have been pretty high...somewhat dissapointing when these trips never takes off...

any1 been through this road b4? perhaps will put all trips away and look into my being thru meditation or a 2 week rite.

not sure if the san pedro cactus psychoactive content is less in this current stock. did read that too much boiling also reduce the potency of the cactus, will be less visual...

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"Did u find that the world outside is all inside your mind?"
"or have u come by again? to die again?"
"try again another time" (Tom Rapp)

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