Big Ride

First peek through the K-hole

Substances: Ketamine

I had six lines of K (25mg) each lined up on a plate. Shit, so what do i do now? I scoured the house for a straw and was gonna give up on it and resort to rolling up a dollar bill when i remembered that my 3 year old's "lion king" sippy cup had a straw on the inside!

oK...I put on a tape sent to me for the occasion by a fellow veeple, then i did the first two lines, a couple minutes later, the next two....ahhhhh starting to feel euphoric...then what the hell, may as well do the last two lines, too!

WOW! It's hard to know what to say except that i was tripping wildly for the next 75 minutes. In fact, the first thought i had coming out of the K trance was "what the hell am i gonna post about this???"

I was in K-land, and i wan't sure if i was coming back, and frankly, it didn't matter to me if i did or not!

One interesting thing is that people often say there is typically no fear response associated with K. This seemed true for me, except there were a couple times when my thoughts intruded into my egoless, K-state which are thoughts i normally associate with fear. For instance, i once thought "if i open my eyes, there could very easily be a group of doctors peering over me in my helpless state...i could be in a institution now...better not open my eyes to find out!" At some point (maybe going into it?) there was a string of these "fear" scenarios, but they didn't seem to interfere with the pleasurable aspects of the experience.

What i did NOT experience was the "hallucinations" i expected. I was in a sense, wildly hallucinating, but this was not worlds beyond what i have encountered on high dose tryptamines, the hallucinations certainly had a distinct character unlike anything i have experienced, but i had expectations that K would shock my sense of reality in a big way....it did in the moment, because it was an ego-loss experience, but in some ways it wasn't as much of an "awakening" as say, my first acid trip. i feel like i'm coming up with some kind of theory around this...ego loss is ego loss, and it is quite secondary what path (entheogen or otherwise) one takes to get there. The hallucinations encounted in this state seem to be less what drug is taken, and more what vantage point in the universe is obtained in that moment, perhaps randomly determined, perhaps determined by some sort of karmic influences.

I know some people like to do "directed" trips on K. They come to K with questions that are subsequently answered. That would be really cool, maybe with more experience i might gain some kind of inkling as to how to do such a thing, but this trip just took me for a big ride, and all i was doing was holdin' on!

I did not meet, nor did i feel the prescense of any "entities". Maybe next time...i believe there is alot down there in that K-hole...it didn't really feel like a "hole" to me, i mostly felt like my consciousness was expanding outwards and shifting this way and that....not many words to describe it, so i gues "hole" is as good as any : )

When i came out of the trance, I really had to pee, and Sophie helped me keep my footing, i felt like i just had a five hour surgery and was coming off the anesthetics (which makes sense). Then Sophia and i got in bed and i rubbed coconut oil on her ever-expanding belly and guess what??? KICK!!!! I felt the baby kick for the first time! She'd been feeling it for a few days, but not hard enough for me to notice.

I slept great last night...no hangover either.