Between Bliss And Horror

Some Good Advice

Substances: 5-MeO-DMT

Upon receiving 10mg of 5-methoxy N,N-dimethyltryptamine in the mail, a friend and I decided to try this substance. The results were truly extra-ordinary.

We began by dividing what we had in two. As a means of administration we chose to vaporize the substance in a test tube and suck out the vapor through a straw; the appparatus was sealed fairly tightly.

I went first. I took one hit and felt strange; I waited a minute or two and decided to finish my allotment. I inhaled the acrid but not entirely unpleasant vapor in its entirety, laid back, and shakily handed my friend the test tube.

The boundaries of myself, the sofa, the world, the room, my friend, and everything else subsequently began to shift. I drifted in and out of a basic, sublime, unthinking state as I felt gravity and the sofa wash to and fro. The buddhist metaphor of a rolling pin on a thread seemed apt at that time; one one side was complete and abject horror, on the other was complete ecstasy and bliss, and in the middle was the open and fluid state I wished to maintain.

The bliss and horror which I speak of were unlike any other such emotion which I have ever felt. In the everyday, game-playing world such emotions have basis in reality--they have a cause. The states which I was experiencing whilst in my trance had no such connections; they were unthinking and absolute. I can see how one might be suffocated in all- encompassing horror while under the influence of this substance. I, luckily, did not fall prey to such a fate; I was able to maintain a thoroughly joyous if not 100% alien state of mind. The glimpses of this horror which I was able to percieve shook me mightily. I will carefully weigh dosages in any similar dream I have so as not to lose the slight control I kept in this one.

The subsequent hour or so was spent in a distorted but giggly state of mind.

Now some advice for anyone who endeavors to dream my dream:

1) Do not eat anything before or while under the influence of this substance. I had been eating a small amount of chocolate and experienced an alarming blood pressure and pulse rise. My friend, who had not been eating chocolate (but who was sipping OJ), had no such symptoms.

2) Set and setting blah blah blah. However in a sense these are not as important as they are while on acid; the 5-MeO state is so basic that concepts like these seem insignificant. Acid gives leeway for conceptual thought and thus a slip into negative game-playing modes.

3) Read some Taoist literature before or after your dream. It will take on new, relevant meaning.

Well, that's it. I hope this will add to the minute amount of first-hand accounts of dreams about this chemical. As others have said, I reiterate: do not take this chemical lightly. It may be the most profound psychedelic known. Use utmost caution in the arenas of diet, set/setting, dosage, etc. If you trifle with this substance you will be punished.