Bad Combination?

2C-B, MDMA, and Phalaris extract

Substances: MDMA, 2C-B, Phalaris

Anyway, Sunday felt great, I was happier than usual and I felt calm and rested. Everything seemed perfect for a trip; my girlfriend was here and the setting was my own home (the best place this time of the year). I had not eaten anything this day except for some vitamin pills and I had only eaten soup the day before.

As I began to think of what catalyst to use this time, it struck me that I had some recently synthesized MDMA which had not yet been tested. Me and my girlfriend decided to "candyflip" (combining an entactogen with an entheogen) this time as we had never done this before. My girlfriend took 100mg that about 1.5h later was supplemented with a 40mg booster. As I'm big person I took a higher dose; 120mg followed by a 60mg supplement.

Approximately 2 hours after the booster ingestion we both took 20mg of 2C-B. As I seem to have a quite high threshold for 2C-B I decided to take another 20mg 20 minutes later together with 2g of Psilocybe semilanceata. I then waited for 40 minutes and took 20mg 2C-B and 2g Ps. semilanceata again. This was meant to be enough this evening but as I will tell You later, it wasn't. The initial MDMA trip went just fine, we had a nice long conversation without getting into any trouble. The side-effects were hardly noticed and as we both were ready for the 2C-B supplement we felt just fine, everything was perfect. We ingested 20mgs each and I then waited for the initial effects to become apparent and then ingested the rest of the Psilocybes and another 20mg dose of 2C-B.

As usual the 2C-B really heightens ones desire for sex and we began to make love. It was a really nice experience; the tactile sense is so greately enhanced, her touching felt like liquid fire that was burning straight through my skin and melted together with my spine - I was shivering with pleasure. The love making is definetly something special. One gets a feeling of meliting together, we was one with everything. Her face appeared in different guises - everything from Cleopatra to the most beautiful supermodel. When I reached orgasm I felt levitated (so did she), like being lifted up to another dimension or something like that (this is the closest I get to ego-death I believe).

Anyway, the second time we "did it" (about 5mins after my last 2C-B/Ps ingestion) I got this weird feeling that I've never had before. I felt like I was "using" her, and I really enjoyed it. She was kind of on a lower level than I was. This is something I've never felt before, and it was truly frightening. Where I live it's very common that boys get the girls drunk so that the girls are more willing to have sex, which definetly is rape according to me, and I've never liked this at all. But this single time I really enjoyed to feel if I was using here. This was really terrifying for me (afterwards). I asked her if she had felt anything strange, but she (luckily) hadn't.

I've heard that 2C-B also can boost such feelings as the one I described, but it really came as a surprise to me. I feel very reluctant about having sex next time I trip on 2C-B.

This was not the only "incident" during the trip. Later I decided to listen to Smashing Pumpkins new album "Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness". This was the first time I listened to this record while being thoroughly wasted.

Everything was just fine until I tried to understand what he was singing. I didn't understand a word.. I got angry and a bit scared, so I went up to find some nootropics. I ingested 2400mg piracetam, 500mg centrophenoxine, 10mg vinpocetine and 3 whiffs of vasopressin. I went back to the stereo and I still couldn't understand what he was singing.

Now I got a bit confused. I began to doubt on the effects of the nootropics and I didn't know what to do. I began to walk around at the ground floor of our house (my girlfriend was upstairs). The trip got very intensified, and the environment was VERY distorted to say the least. Finally I decided to go even farther, as I've never had any transcendental experience or anything like that I decided that this was THE time to really go deep. I went upstairs to find a Phalaris arundinacea extract (DMT/5-MeO-DMT). I went down again and smoked quite much of the extract in a freebase-pipe.

By now everything began to lose their familiar shape. I was in somekind of fog where bright colored patterns were flying everywhere. This wasn't scary at all - I felt as if this was my true home. But then it happend. The record came to the 13th track (Porcelina of the Vast Oceans), which I usually consider as one of SP best songs. I suddenly became aware that the fog was really an endless ocean - and I was in the middle. Somehow I didn't feel real, it seemed as if I were made of plastic. I began to lift from "the ocean" and I lost that plastic feeling at the same time.

I could still see the ocean far down below me, and in the ocean I could see a small orange life-raft. I (my soul) was sitting in the raft when I gained this incredible insight. The raft was me (or more exactly: my life). My life was floating in this great sea of meaninglessness. There was absolutely no point at all to live.

I saw this picture for what I think is a couple of minutes (probably as long as the song is) and I then returned to the fog I came from. I decided to commit suicide. I was probably shouting or something because my girlfriend came downstairs and she looked so hilariously funny that I began to laugh. She asked what's wrong and I tried to tell her as good as I could (I don't think she understood though). She got me on other thoughts and I could go on tripping as usual.

Anyway, I did not exactly forget about this - I had it in the back of my head rest of the trip, but it didn't feel as strong as it did earlier. Not until in the afterglow (2C-B trips end quite abruptly) I really realized what had happend. I still think of that damn raft and a life without any meaning.

Overall this trip was very 2C-Bish, ie it had the characteristic 2C-B effects: moving objects, intense colors (see Soundgarden's video to "Black Hole Sun" and You know what I mean), familiar sights assumed strange aspects and a rippling effect in ceilings and walls. I think that the OEVs were enhanced by the mushrooms though. The last part with the fog was most certainly due to the DMT. Something that also reminded of 2C-B was the feeling that I had this total control over everything (which I lost in the last (DMT) part).

Well, my girlfriend (according to herself) had a very nice experience. I think that the trip was useful in some way, but it was still terrifying and I still think about the meaning of life. I won't do this combination again, that's for sure..

Hope You liked the trip report even though the language boundaries did the descriptions quite dull, english is not my best side.