Unexpected gift

A very positive experience

Substances: Mescaline

I take 400 mg over the course of half an hour, in 4 doses dissolved in juice. Finshed at about 9:45.

Stomach mildly displeased. This builds in intensity until I finally hork at 10:30 or so. Okay, so maybe dosing that way wasn't a good idea.

Effects begin shortly after vomiting and really develop over the next hour. OEV's are not much different from low-dose LSD. Sharper vision, geometric patterning. Auditory is maybe slightly enhanced. I'd been curious to see if there would be a "spirit" of mescaline, and soon a dialogue began. Mescaline would not be anthropomorphized. It would show me things, but didn't manifest itself in a physical form to me in the visions.

The visions had a few themes. One was the nature of humankind, as seen from the perspective of other species. Humans are "curious, grabby little monkeys", all eyes and fingers. We are species-centric, totally caught up in the illusion that is our society, in which other species are unimportant. It showed me how un-aware I was of other lifeforms, how I was entranced by, well, shiny things, and how I'd bought into some bullshit ideas. All presented with gentle humor.

I hadn't realized it, but I was guilty of plant prejudice! "These plants here are more [interesting | important | beautiful] than those there." In particular, I had devalued a smallish shrub when observing a group of plants. "Oh, what lovely flowers! What a wonderful tree! Oh yeah, and that shrub, I guess."

"It's springtime!" Mescaline said. "Everything is reproducing! Why aren't you?" When I tried to explain that I didn't want any more children, it was surprised. This seemed to go against the very laws of nature. While you can breed, you should, for the good of your species. It couldn't believe I didn't understand.

Mescaline wanted the full-on experience of being human through my body. Eating was suggested, including a specific food to sample. Sex was encouraged. Unfortunately, I had the same desensitivity that MDMA produces for me, so orgasm was not an option. "That's okay," Mescaline said matter-of-factly. "The female orgasm is superfluous to the continuation of your species." Hah!

Mescaline discussed the internet with me. "It's basically useless, at this point. You have too much information and no good way to filter it." I was given a nudge in the direction of working to fix that.

Throughout all this I was in a very good mood. Existence seemed a great joke I wasn't fully capable of understanding, but everything was kind of funny anyways. Mescaline treated me kindly and with respect and humor. I enjoyed its company also, and look forward to any future encounters. In a way, my perspective has been changed permanently in regards to the human race and its relation to other species, and so a part of Mescaline will be with me forever.

I wasn't paying close attention to the time, but I was coming down as the sun was coming up. Probably the main part of the trip lasted 7 or 8 hours. Even at its strongest, the trip was never overwhelming. If I allowed myself to close my eyes and go into a trance, the dialogue with Mescaline would deepen. I wouldn't mind upping the dose a bit in the future.

Overall this was a wonderful experience, and I am grateful to the cosmic forces that brought it about.